I'm in a new place right now. Somewhere I am completely content with, and that comes with its own consequences, but right now, I'm happy and I'm going to ride that wave.
I feel so ... together. That is not something I've really felt strongly in the two years I've been at SAU. Not that I've felt like I've been falling apart all this time, but right now I have this overwhelming feeling of togetherness. I have this great job that I love, great roommates, great friends, great classes. And I've been having a wonderful time getting familiar with a new year and new people. This is the first time that I've felt like, to some extent, I've got the answers to the questions.
I think part of my feeling of being together comes from being content. Not from being content in not trying for better, but content with what I have. I'm content with being single. I'm content with my place in life, and where God is leading me (which is I have no clue where...). I finally have hope for the future. Trusting that God is faithful in life, no matter what, is what gives me hope. Hope that there is someone out there for me, but I'm not ready yet. Hope that my friends will be at peace with their lives. Hope that my problems in life will fix themselves if I don't worry, even that the problems I see really aren't problems to be fixed.
My prayer is that God strengthens me in order to help others, he renews my hope and trust in Him each and every morning, and that I remember this feeling. In this moment. Right now.
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