Getting so close and turning over a new leaf...

School has begun. Fall is right around the corner, and I couldn't be more excited. Unfortunately the weather of the school year has been less than pleasurable though. Its been rainy and cold. BUT...my Joe is back, I played some volleyball today, and Ang has been my own personal trainer :) This is going to be a good year! So my goal for this year is to take chances, do things I've never done, and maybe even things I've never wanted to do. I'll try to post each day that I do something worth telling. But right now I'll play catch-up.


Yesterday: Slip & Slide on Mt. Beebe...not the greatest experience, was pretty fun until the bottom where there was a rocky mud pit. Mud would have been fine, rocky-not so much.

Today: Played in my first beginning of the year Block Party. We lost at volleyball...we were quite rusty. But we went and played in Dunckel for a while and it was pretty fun. I feel like there was something else, but I can't remember it now.

Longing

I'm loving the summer weather, the lack of school work, but that's about it. I'm longing for everything the fall brings. Friends. Leaves. Cider. Sweaters. Home.

less than 24....

I'll be heading to Greece in less than 24 hours. I'll be somewhere over the Atlantic in 24 hours...and shortly after...arrival in GREECE! I'm packed and ready and my luggage is not quite 50 40 pounds. Yay for souvenir space! I'll keep you all posted while in Greece! Check out my other blog...http://fromgreecewithlovebri.blogspot.com/

eh...

yesterday, I did not get on here. I spent time with my sister, watched Fast Five, went bowling, and came home to watch the other fast and furious movies backward. Then we had a sleepover.

Today we went shopping yay! I spent too much money! No yay!

The beginning.

I'm home. Its nice. My goal is to post every time I have access to internet this summer in at least in some way. Tonight, I'm tired. Tomorrow, I'll sleep in. The next week (less than that!) is going to be CRAAAAZAY as I unpack from school and repack for Greece. But for now unwinding is the name of the game. No more yellow cards. No more fines. No more. No more. Yay for sleep. Yay for sun. Yay for summer.

Emergency Rooms

So, I'm sitting here in the Allegiance Hospital ER, not for me, but for someone else. When I was asked to drive, I was kind of thinking how much of a nuisance it was, I had an assignment due at 5 and there was no way we were going to get back in time to turn it in (and we're not..). But since being here, I really realized that its all in how you look at it. I've had peace and quiet here. Well, not necessarily complete quiet, but I got my homework done, no distractions, and that truly is a blessing.

I'm starting to wonder...

Do clouds really have silver linings? I guess its all in the way you look at things. You have to decide when to stop trying because trying really isn't enough any more. You have to decide whether a friendship is worth fighting for. If you're on the other end, you have to decide whether or not to wish someone happiness or to harbor bitterness against them and not forgive. I'm all for forgiving. I'm ready to move on with my life. I want to have friends and live life like a normal person. I'm ready to give things a second chance. Time was all that was needed, but apparently the friendship wasn't important enough to give time and a little bit of frustration to. All relationships have their big fights, right?

My day has been full of ups and downs, and the downs always follow the ups by about five minutes. Dang life. The question of a fast forward button comes to mind right now. Would I use it right now?? Or would my life be lost if I used it? I'm thinking that it sounds wonderful, I'm what I would call distraught right now. But then I think about the cause of all my problems with my friends, Joe. He is worth my time and my life, and I wouldn't say he's worth my friendships, but I feel like that's what people think I believe. Just everyone's left me here, but he's stayed by my side. And he is the reason I wouldn't use that fast forward button.

....Random Stuff for the day...

Hello hello from the little world traveller! I just got back from Costa Rica yesterday, and it was amazing, but I'll post more on that later. This post is just random.

I came back from Costa Rica with a cold and it has sucked majorly. My nose is raw. I carry around Puffs plus with lotion, but not just the kleenex, the whole box. I sound like I'm talking with my nose plugged. And I'm always tired. Yay for colds. But I've been taking Sinex and its helping, I think. But what I was wondering today was--does the medicine just take away the symptoms or does it help cure you of the cold. I never understood that. Thoughts?

Also, I wanted to share with you my favorite song right now:
Coming Home - Diddy ft. Skylar Grey

The song is good...not so much the video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k-ImCpNqbJw

My favorite part is the chorus:

"I'm coming home, coming home
Tell the world that I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits
And they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, coming home
Tell the world that I'm coming home"

It seems to me to have a bit of a religious undertone to it.

And an honorable mention:
Boy with a coin- Iron & Wine

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G_1Zz9ud83I

That's all the randomness for the day.

Day of Hearts

So today was a pretty regular, ordinary day. . . honestly just the way it should be. Other than society setting aside a day for us to pay extra attention to one another, Joe and I have no reason to celebrate Valentines Day. Why should there have to be a holiday with so much pressure and so much expectation for a couple to treat one another nicely? Can't that just be a spontaneous thing, something that you share with one another on a day you choose rather than with everyone else? Joe and I had our meals together like we always do, then after dinner we went and took a drive. We played the penny game: at every stop sign or light we flipped the coin and decided to go left or right. We went to Parma, Albion, Concord, and Homer. Nothing too exciting. But we then had some time to spare before I had to be back for on duty night and we went to Hillsdale to one of my favorite places: Slayton Arboretum.

It was still very snowy. Its like a garden in the middle of Hillsdale, so its not like it gets shoveled or plowed or anything. It was still beautiful and on such a clear night, warmer than it has been in months, it was wonderful.

Winter

I'm trying to be joyful right now, but its difficult. Its winter, and winter always proves to be the most difficult time to be joyful for me. Everything is the wrong temperature and full of loneliness. Boo.

Classes

I'm starting to wonder if I should lower my expectations for my classes. I expect them to be more engaging, more professional, more "higher level" but we're still having silly group discussions and wasting time, not learning anything about what the specific course description says we're going to learn. Yes, maybe I should hold my complaining horses, its only the second day of class. But really, they want us to think for ourselves, why do they put us in groups and have us try to find a definition of a concept that we all agree with? That isn't thinking for ourselves or having our own opinion. That's conforming, compromising our ideas. And groups? maybe for a project, but in class discussion? No, not a fan. And adult learners? Not going to even start on that one. I need a nap...

broken.

Why do things keep breaking on/under/around me?

Yay for Birthdays!!!!

Today is Joe's birthday and we found out something wonderful about Denny's: Free Grand Slam on your birthday!!! So I treated him to a free meal! haha. Later today we're having cake and ice cream--which sarah and I will be baking soon. We'll go to Deeper tonight and it will have been a wonderful day. The weekend is going to be CRAAAAZAAYY. Friday my mom is coming up to take us to dinner, then SKATING FOR TUQUES! My favorite event!!! Then on Saturday Joe's entire family is coming up on Saturday to take us out for dinner. I'm super excited to see his sister. She's 9 and HILARIOUS. So that's my weekend of wonderfulness =)

today was...

A long day.

A boring day.

A happy day.

A redeeming day.

blogging

So, I'm thinking of shutting this thing down. Honestly, every time I get on it I get depressed about where my friendships have ended up this semester. I'm back to the high school days of no close friendships. At least that's how it feels, especially when I read the blogs of my friends. Reading them makes me feel unimportant. It makes me sad.
I really like blogging though, I have tons of happy things to say when I get on, then I get un-happy when I read others'. Maybe I'll start a new blog with no subscriptions and no subscribers. Friendless. None of my options seem anything but depressing.