Malk

Mainly the only reason I'm posting at this time of night is that I have 19 posts and I need a nice even 20. Here's the overview. Class sucked tonight. Volleyball sucked tonight. A few other things might have sucked as well, but we'll try to be optimistic for the kids.

I only caught the tail end of our Ice Cream Social with our brother floor, which consisted of only three guys by the time I got there. My group interview for the RA position is on Thursday, so be praying!

...so...Malk...
watch this video, it explains all...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ty62YzGryU4

If I was a tomato...

I'm going to work out soon with Kels, so this one is going to be my attempt at being quick, a sixty-seconds of sorts.

I'm applying to be a Resident Assistant for next year, that would mean I would be "in charge" of my own floor. I'm excited about that and I have to turn in my application by Friday. I will find out before Spring Break if I got a position, but that will be after a couple of interviews happen.

I am working at the Spring Arbor Cafe for all of you who didn't already know. Its a little restaurant in Spring Arbor and I just work a couple of days a week, notthing too overwhelming. **Spring Arbor Students, you get 10% off!**

I tried a paczki yesterday in honor of Fat Tuesday (the day before Lent starts) its actually pronounced (poonch-ki).

I love Frosted Flakes with my whole heart. I got a ginormous box of them yesterday. We also got a new coffee pot cuz ours pooped out on us.

I am in a photography class and I developed my first roll of film this week =) turned out great!

For my Popular Culture class we are required to do technology fasts and one day last week I went 24 hours without (well trying) looking in a mirror. I have two more 24-hour periods to go. Also, I am in the second day of three of not listening to any recorded music. That has been interesting to say the least. Me and two of my friends went to Walmart yesterday and I couldn't listen to the radio, so one of them sang the whole time. On the way to Walmart it was all Veggie Tales, all the time! This is a perfect transition to the final point of this blog...


I asked Angie what she would do if I was a tomato and this was her reply-- "I would become a cucumber because then we could be Bob and Larry and we would be BFFs." That is my favorite, and I've been asking this question since jr. high.

mysterious as the dark side of the moon

So today has been one of those days. You know the kind, you begin the day completely positive that nothing good could come out of it, but then when looking back on the day, it has been one of the best in a while. I think that everything that I expected to be one thing was the complete opposite. I expected to go to photography class today (its one of my favorites), that didn't happen. The first class of the semester that I skip is not because I want to skip, but because I needed to get a few things straightened out with my best friend. I expected to go to one of my classes and having to sit through a completely irrelevant lecture, but I was surprisingly interested. I expected to go to work and be bored out of my mind, but I was quite busy and had some fun, even connected with some of my new co-workers a little more. I expected to go to intramural volleyball and do a little better than I did (actually I was hoping our team would win), that was not the case. I expected to go to Bible study, but forgot and instead had dinner (at 11pm) and talked about my relationship with God with one of my friends. All in all, it was a good night, turning out completely opposite of what I expected =)


My favorite things about today:

"No probs, no probs!" Paul Patton

"We're TWINKLES!" Britney Miller

Kelsey breaking RaeLee's pencil, while writing her an apology note for breaking her freezer door.

Toy Story

So today is a Woody day. If you know anything about Toy Story (the movie), you might remember that in the first movie, when Buzz Lightgear comes, Woody is pushed to the side by whatever his name. I am Woody, and I don't like it. This sad feeling overcomes me when I see my best friend doing the things that we used to do--the things that made our friendship fun--with someone else. Someone who is better at sports than I am, someone who is better at fighting, someone who is better at games and movie quotes. Those were things I know I'm not good at, but I had fun trying because I was doing them with my best friend. She is still my best friend, and times are tough right now, but I know she loves me. During my devotions today, I learned about how our obstacles are really just ways to strengthen our faith. We are to persevere through the tough times and we will become complete and mature through our perseverance. We will learn something about ourselves from having faith and pushing forward. I'm pushing forward. I'm bettering my self in this rough time, and things will become comfortable eventually. Until then I will continue praying.

Ghandi

So, you might be thinking, What inspirational gibber jabber does this girl have to offer from the words of Ghandi. I'm sorry to disappoint, but none. Ghandi is my red, male betta fish. My birthday gift from the lovely Kelsey Lehman. Oh and we had a staring contest today. He totally won.

obnoxious much?

Man I feel like one of those obnoxious blogger people. You know the ones, they blog about five times a day about things that really don't matter to anyone. In my defense, this blog was supposed to be my connection to home. I have to say that I think it was an epic failure. My only followers are not my family, but my friends, therefore I have decided that it is no longer necessary for me to post about mundane things that are boring to everyone (if any family is reading this, please let me know and I will continue writing about the day-to-day stuff that some people already know). Back to my point. The first (two) posts from today (well now yesterday) were directed to my family. This, this is directed to all of you who genuinely care to read my thoughts. My thoughts. Those that are my own. Not duplicates of anyone else's. That thought comforts me.

Well, as I was laying in bed about 15 minutes ago, I decided that I couldn't fall asleep until I got something off of my chest, something that I have just realized. My relationships with my friends have been great this year. No major fights. No uncomfort. No loneliness. Until now. I'm not saying that I have gotten into any major fights, because that is not necessarily the case. I have been lonely, which is sad considering I am surrounded by people here. The problem is that I don't pay attention to other people enough and when I need them, it just isn't quite satisfying to have them around. Now that sounds harsh. And I don't mean it that way. It is not that they have any failing within them. Its me that has the problem. These people have done all they can to make me happy, yet I remain sad, depressed even. While my relationships with my friends have skyrocketed, my relationship with God has, well sunk to what I would consider, a low-point. I have forgotten him until it is convenient for me. When I'm upset, I pray to him to fix it. Make me better. Give me peace. Why would he give me peace if I'm not willing to accept his love all the time? If I'm not willing to let that be enough?

What I've decided is that I have to put aside trying to fix the holes within my friendships, stop trying to fill the lonely space, and soak Jesus in. Pray. Worship. I don't think that any of this sadness will dissipate until I fill the empty space with my Lord. Only then will the holes of my friendships become whole. Only then will I be content rather than lonely. Only then will I be happy with myself and what God is giving me, because I am paying attention. There is peace in letting go. There is beauty in walking away.

Look in my side bar and listen to 'Beauty in walking away' by marie digby if you have time. It has been the nudge I need right now.

Birthday Happiness =)

I forgot to tell everyone in my last post about my amazing birthday...Mom, Ali, & Joe came up to visit on Saturday and they took me out to eat--we went to bd's Mongolian grill, and man was it great! After that we went to IKEA and stopped by Target so I could get khakis for my new job! (more on that Later!). We came back and they checked out my room, and after that I grabbed Emily and we went to dinner. Emily was amazing this weekend. I wasn't particularly excited about the weekend because everyone was gone and it was my birthday, but she was a trooper, and it ended up being probably one of the best birthday weekends ever. We talked a lot, which is something we haven't got to do in a long time (she was my roommate last year). We watched 500 days of summer and got mad at the characters, and we made funny videos and took great pictures. Another great person that I got to spend alot of time with RaeLee when she got back to school too. It was great. Then monday I got to start my first day at the Spring Arbor Cafe as a waitress. I have worked two days so far and am getting into the swing of things.

Tammera came back from her weekend on Monday and brought me back some magnets with the letters of my name on them. Kelsey brought me back a hippo named Heroldine, and the promise of getting a betta fish =) If its a girl its name will be Caliopy and if its a boy- Theophilus (though I am open to suggestions on this one). Also Madee and Angie made me cupcakes...well, once they are gone I will go back to my no-sweets-except-Friday rule!